During Sunrise

Studying sucks.

2010-03-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

Omg! how long ive yet to update my blog? too busy to blog i guess.
and yaw. talking of which, im having my final year exams in like a few more days and then after tues, thats it. i will be graduating and will be saying goodbye to that pathetic school with a pathetic environment. being there for the past three years is a sufferring.

Now instead of studying and trying to crack my brain to memorise all the bloody 9 units make me sicked.. Ice tall classic cocoa do help in making me awake.. I cant really concentrate cos there is alot of things bothering me. First and for all, my stomach is asking for food. Secondly, im waiting for my babyboy to actually call me and confirm with me again whether is he going to have dinner with me? Cause basically, i dont have this patience to have most of my time to wait for him.
His dilly-dally-ness make me go haywire.

by the wooss, there's alot of things changed.
Now ive switched my job to be a barista. where and where? find out yourself.
making coffee is like part and parcel of my life.
ive meet alot of pretty nice people in there.
The pay is quite reasonable for a student like me.
Let me tell you something. i have this really big problem.
ive always have the thought of saving but ending up spending..
So, i see no point in opening up MYSAVINGS a/c.
When come to my desperate times, i dont mind queing up at the bank just to withdraw pathetic 10 bucks. So the bank teller will give me this one look which i feel so (distracting) when i wanted to withdraw that little amount.

Well, my hair had become totally uncontrollable with those terrible frizzy hair.
oh my, really cant take it!
thought of rebonding (again)!
If my mum knew about this, i think she will give me one nice type of slap. -_-

2009-03-13T00:27:00.002+08:00

Watched KungFu chef with Anuar yesterday. Firstly, this bastard told me that that was a cartoon movie. So i was like, ''huh, kau suruh aku tgk cartoon?'' Then he smile all the way. Feel like giving him one type slap! And ya, i was stupid enuf to believe, at the end, it is not even a cartoon movie la. fuck.

He is already late plus he make me veryveryvery angry, and at that point of time, only god knows how hungry am i. He is lucky enuf that i didnt curse and swear him up and down back and front.. pfft!

After the movie, it's already late. And this kepo want to eat at Popeye. By the time we took the train to go marina, the restaurant wud be close. So i told him dont be so stupid so we took the cab there. Go to HELL with him. Let him pay.

I don't understand why ppl go to this POpeye and eat. The food is already cold, the staff is fucking rude, the price is unreasonably expensive, the fries, i swear if i let the dog eat, confirm guarantee its teeth will give way. In the end, i dnt even eat that goddamn meal. Suprisingly, he volunteered to finish it up for me since he dont want to waste such a delicious meal! wth! hahaha

2009-01-06T22:53:00.005+08:00

Yeah, it's already a brand new fresh year now and i still done nothing with this blog. First and foremost, i wanna wished you'all a

HAPPY NEW YEAR and LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST YA.

((:

Frankly speaking, im sick and tired of blogging. I hate the fact i dont have the patient to wait for the pictures to be upload kos they would take their own sweet time.

In addition to that,

i've to cracked my brains in remembering what did i do the day before,

where do i go and whatever shit that i do on my daily routine.

Ive alot of things to do for the past couple of months and end up, i dont have any free time for all this. I've to study for my exams, ive to work, ive to do this and that, and everything will never come to an end. So, the main priority now is to study. Im aiming of getting the GPA of 4 this semester. But like what people say,

i'll try not to aim too high.

Countdown with the guys were pretty exciting. With all those beautiful fireworks, plus the background music that were being played all along makes me really happy. Totally contented i can say. Thank god that my mum allows me to enjoy my firstime nightlife. Ya it's pathetic for a 19 year old girl to still had curfew, but rules mean rules.

If i defy, thats it.

-I tried so hard to disregard

2008-11-20T23:49:00.004+08:00

.....HAPPY 2YR'S ANNIVERSARY, MUSCLE MAN!......

Bring him to swensen last saturday.

It was my treat kos it's our 2yrs anniversary.

So, just consider this as my sincere gift to u, baby.

i work hard enough just to earn this sum of money to bring him there.

and it is like our first time ever having lunch together at swensen after for so long of... hmph!

&& we'r so excited like an happy monkey

So, after lunch, i wanted to meet mel to pass her some things. And i didnt know that suntec convention centre is having a bookfare. e Most interesting, All storybooks were given a discount of 20%.whatta a great deal!but the day before i bought myself the book change of heart by jodi picoult.i should read it soon. really soon. i need to settle down with my exams first.

mel*

AND THIS, CHINATOWN

2008-11-15T10:55:00.007+08:00

Bfo he went to Aussie to serve for the country, our friends decide to do some mini celebration fo him. So, on that wed afternooon, we meet up at Eunos to have our stomach full of delicious food and straight to cashbox studio for some singing-together-session.

Sad to say, when we went there, all room is fully booked. So all this stupid monkeys become so restless as we dont know where to head to as we still had a plenty of time bfo they could even get us a room for us to sing-scream-shout!

2008-11-15T09:51:00.003+08:00

There's alot of secrecy in this relationship that i had for this 2 years.
We are still strong in handling matters;
holding each others hands, tightly;
walking on a path which is not even sure where does it lead us to.
As far as im concern, i also need my friends, both of the diff. sex to help me to complete my life.
I know how to carry my own ass and live on this earth.Kos at the end of everything, what i do, what ive done, i will carry everything with me. I will not left any single thing.
Trust me. How i wish that you would trust me whole-heartedly, please.
Cycling with seha and jup is great.
Shit; recalling back, when on earth did i ever had this kind of enjoyment with my friends.
and, im not gonna display any of jup's pic as if mizi knows about this, seeing all the picture all around, he will be like a terrible, mean lion who will be veryveryangry. haha

*******

2008-11-06T10:18:00.003+08:00

This days had been so disturbing.
Everything was just not in order.
I had a stomach disorder.
Sleeping disorder.
Bath disorder.
Mental disorder.
and what else?
hmm, i guess im missing him to an extent which i cant even control myself.
Crying late at night is so bullshit for me.
As he is not going for the sake of enjoying.
But, it is compulsory.
He is not given any options nor choices.
So, letting him go, is just giving myself alot of misery for this bloody one month.
I miss you b a b y

Working at Galileo is a pleasure.
i admit the working environment there is much more better then Daytripper.
But whatever it is, I missed my bosses and my colleagues.
May all of you have good life and god bless you! (:

2008-09-01T06:11:00.014+08:00

My badminton mates:

Rebecca

Jac

amira

ying ting

Afterall, we got the 2nd place. Hooray...! Keep it up girls!

And, i'll missed you'all(!)

2008-09-01T06:11:00.013+08:00

My boss asked me this question just now.

Boss: Lika, wht job will you be in 10 yrs down the road?
Lika: hmm, im not sure yet. ive been thinking, an accountant or maybe an auditor.
Boss: Ok. Why dnt you try lawyer's clerk then? It's on high demand nowadays. Plus, their salary, will amazed you.
Lika: haha. It sounds interesting! :))

haha. Ok, i shall take note of that.
Thanks Boss.

it was 6.05pm.
i was given myself an hour or so to reach home before break-fast.
So by then, i was rushing all the way from my workplace to the MRT as fast as i can.
So, while impatiently waiting for the trafficlight to turned green, there's one malay-guy standing beside me with one thing at his hand that makes me want to give him one nice sidekick.
He was holding a burger, those big burger that looked very tempting to me cause i was hungry, very hungry. Dammit.
How dare him. I was here, beside him, standing in hunger, and there he is, slumber-ly eating his bloody burger. ;/

Tmrw will be a nice meetup with the ladies that ive not seen for such a-a-a long-long-long time man.
I cant wait for this. :)

And ya, the school called me to give a reminder about this fri, for my vaccination.
At the first place, i was given a form, which states there clearly, if im not blind, saying the total cost will be around 33 bucks.
Then now, they manipulate the story, by saying, bring 50 bucks just IN CASE!
What the tut!
When it comes to this, it's already a big issue.
Where am i gonna rob another 20?! -_-

Well oh well, i&him have been doing quite alright this few days, not days i mean, months.
We are happily together and cant wait to go for a honeymoon at Maurirtius for another 8 more years.
So if you are reading this mister X, i hope you get the hint.
Hope you are finding a right woman who will give you a nice tapped at your back and spare her time with you as much as she can afford to.
And not to forget, you're forgiven.

Thats it.

-He had been inked onto my life, as inedible as any tatoo

Rosebullet Research, extract 'The Tenth Circle', 2008

2008-09-01T06:11:00.004+08:00

Today, it rains.

We planned to go to the library to do some studies but end-up the three of us, me sena and tingxian slacking like a bear on the ground as there no tables that are vacant plus with our shoes taken off because it is wholly wet.

After a while, we decide to put our books aside as we cant absorb even a single thing. And this sena talked about a blouse that she have been admiring for so long at AMK hub, and pathetically,i've not stepped there since it open!

We went to the pharmacy and at the entrance, there is this yoghurt stall.

Selling diff. kind of yogurt with different kinds of toppings and all.

Look quite nice externally, but i don't know what will it taste like as i have some phobia with yoghurt. There's once i was being force to eat the very natural youghurt by my dad that he bought from little india. You know those mamaks yoghurt, which have a smelly smell which you cant even swallowed even if you put it in your mouth. eeeerereeeeer!

So, Give me a square of applause for myself for being so stupid, for buying that ice-cream yoghurt which is superr-yucks and super-not-tasty at all. I was being psychoed by that auntie so i left with no choice. Thanks eh for wasting my money. May god bless you.

Had been few days that i've not contacted him cause, he cnt be contacted at all.

as there is no reception around his camp area.

and so, i felt a lil bit emo here and there.

but it's ok.

at least, with his absence, i can study peacefully. Really peaceful. hahahhah

But whatever it is, i sayang you k.

ok laa, go sleep laa, goodnite laa, sweetdreams laa!

hahahah.

2008-08-23T19:41:00.012+08:00

i dont really enjoyed myself frm the sentosa outing the other day. im nt blaming on anybody nor saying about anybody here. im just expressing what i feel and i assumed, i created this blog for the purpose of telling everybody the story of my fairytale.

i can accept the fact that im such fatass but people dnt have the right to criticise me infront of everybody and make me such a bloodyfool. But this fatty here had tried her very best on searching ways of slimming down back and forth. Going arnd like a stupid beggar, seeking for some advice on how & wht shud i do to cut this fats out.

There's once, i've tried to skip meals but i end up laying down on the bed with the pain in the stomach. i know, that's not the proper of dieting. but what can i do? im getting frustrated with my own size.

-__-

Now, from the weight of 67kg, i dropped to 56kg.Thanks to him, for supporting me, advising me to run almost everyday and im satisfied with everything now and live my life like a happy spider. & people, i didnt expect anything from you'all, at least give me some motivation and moral support, with that, it gaves me the reason to no giving up easily despite it pushed myself to the maximum.

Sentosa:

*****

FAREED&FIDA

gayboy POPULAR

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

LOVEBIRDS!

OK, THIS PART, VERYY-FEE-LINGGGG

ROCKCLIMBER?

YESSSAAA

dah lama hidup??

cheese

"aku tau aku cute,jgn marahh... haha

Eh parrot, relax k.u are hurting my hands you !@#$%^!

hello.

2008-06-29T00:08:00.010+08:00

Im superrrrr-tired!

i've decided to continue to blog cause i've missed blogging so-so much.
Today, was a notabadday.
Before work, i've planned to have a together-lunch-session with him at eunos since i was kempunan for kacang pool.
& then, we were still not satisfied nor full.
We went to the nearest sushi stall and have our yummy fishegg&tunasalad sushi.

POWERRRRRRRRRRRR!

Unfortunately, he couldnt send me to work, cause he has a wedding invitaion to attend.
so, all alone to town.

Reach work on time, and happy to say, im working with Mel today.
She's my colleague.
She's petite, short and crazy to core.
I keep calling her bapok for no reason, but she still seems to enjoy it, so, hahaha, i also wouldnt mind then.

-mEL

The boring part was, my boss and his ladyboss came to ths shop.
Is not that i dnt like them to be there, is just that, i just felt very uneasy with their presence
that's all. :)

I dont knw when on earth that our shop was packed of people on Sunday. Customer keep on coming in, tried tons2 of clothes, and yet, they were nt even buying it. I really2 dnt understand this people. fuuuh!

For my lunch cum dinner, i bought myself a donut and a watermelon..
i guess that would last me till tmrw.

A SADDENING CASE. ;'(

cnt wait for my payday.

alot of things to settle.

first thing first.-topup

my mrt concession

2ndly-my face medication, cz my face is getting worst from day to day

3rdly-mascara

last&for all a suprise gift for him.

:))

2008-06-29T00:08:00.009+08:00

Maybe im not the one one you are finding for, but i could tell you that it will be forever, that i will love you. Happy 1yr7mths my dear. May god bless us. Mwah!

loveYouLoveYou

2008-02-16T00:29:00.008+08:00

Work was boring, as usual. Seeing the same old people almost everyday, make me sick. The old skinny bowlface security guard, who keeps staring at me like as if im a a piece of gold, irritates me alot.

The cleaner auntie always give me a tapped on the back while im washing my cup and even the chocolate auntie infront my shop always called me darling from day to night. What the most happiest thing was, the chinese guy from the next shop keep buying me bubble tea for free once a week. I don't know what he was up to actually. Bt thanks btw. hahaha.

After work, meet up with those gondols at spinelli and along the way, i saw juliana. She's my favourite primary school bestfriend. A best friend who loves to cry alot. A girl who would cry when the teachers say that she have to stay back after school, because she talks alot. A girl who would cry if she forgot to bring her pocket money to school and ending up im the one who had to treat u. A girl who would keep on crying on the smallest littlest thing that happen to her every single day.

Da besar eh kau. And just imagine, the minute she saw me, she hugged me like the world was going to end or something. I swear that we had not been seeing each other for ages and it seems that you've changed alot. Hello my friend, you've turned into one of those beautiful ladies who dressed up and walked around the town. Oh, it's great to actually remembering the happy moments of our kids life. We had done so much silly things together. You would love if i stayed over your house so that you could washed&shampooed my hair act as in im in a saloon or something and im force to be your bloody customer. And worst still, your nails were long, when u scrub my scalp, it hurts, u ass. i'll always rmbr that. ALWAYS! Then at night, im force again to be your brother little audience to watched him played his guitar. All the rythm were totally out of tune, so i really can't help it, i knocked out halfway.

How is he btw? Is he marrying soon? hahaha. Don't forget to send me his wedding invitation ok.

Shit, i missed my godmother's kacang pool. How is she? Is she still going to beat me up for not calling her when im free? haha. Is not that i don't have the time, i simply don't have your new house number and how on earth i could contact her?

The last time i saw her was at geylang market, alone, eating chendol when i boo her from behind. haha. She terkejot nak mampos ok! We don't have alot of time to catch up on anything cause ive to help my mum to carry all the stuffs. Then she quickly grabbed my hand and gave me 10 bucks for no reason. That was ur mum habit. Loved to spoil me with money. And not to forget, my mum send her regards to her, hopefully that she will passed her car licence successfully.

And you, stop that bad habit of being so sensitive and cry everyday everytime cause i guess the whathisname guy who you were with now wont afford to supply you tissue every now and then. I guess if he needs to, he need to open up one tissue factory just for u then. haha. I hav ur no. and u have mine. So there will be no sort of reasons for not contacting me if not i will dig ur nose till it bleeds. Tell nona, i want presents on my 18th bday! COMPULSORY! To everybody, Happy belated Valentine's day people! hahaha. i know it's not too outdated, but who cares anyway. Goodbye.

2008-01-20T22:20:00.003+08:00

How i wished i could be strong like Holly. She is like, can bear without Gerry by her side. Hmm, im talking about the book that i bought few weeks ago. Titled PS I Love You. Overall, its a great storybook. When u read it, u can really feel how hooly managed to survived living alone without her husband whom she loves so much. Oh, im so touch. So, at this upon of time, i will really appreciate his presence as i reallly cant live without him. I really hope that god will blessed us on whatever we do and protect us from any danger.

And, im hell tired mann. Been werking for 6 days straight.
And if my legs is alive, it would have beat me up till i drop-dead.
Seriously, i've been standing for like, 10 bloody hours just to entertain this hegeh-hegeh-cerewet-giler-nak-mampos customer.

Hmm, i should not be complaining then, bcoz, im the one who is really gatal enough to work so, serve me right laa. But like what ppl say, money will not come dilli-dally to you.

So, must work hard and i'll just need to wait till the end of the month to have my shooping spreee that i've not done for ages.
And btw, my beloved,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY YA.
Semoge panjang umur, murah rezeki dan berbahagia di samping keluarga. hahaha. :)

2008-01-03T16:53:00.003+08:00

hello hello.
i can't believe that i had a GPA of 3.719. haha. Alhamdulilah!
Seriously, at that moment, i do alot of revision. ALOT OK!
Revise, memorise till i drop. MCM NAK GILAA EH!

&& now im happy, happy.. shalalala!
My parents are proud of me.
Cause, in the family, im the eldest plus the only girl who they think they can rely on & have a bright future ahead and they are confident that i can do well in my studies.

Thanks mama&&ayah for the moral support!
i love the both of you, mwwwahhhs!
So, as a sign of appreciation, i bought them a box of Ferror Rocher.
and, not to forget, wanna say thannkkyouuu soososo much to my sayang for being there for me when im stress in my studies.

Althought at that point of time you are faraway from me, but you see, i still make it through. HOORAY! Thankyou!
im happy that the people i love are with me when im totally in need.
God blessed you all!

2008-01-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

Ult li albi bissaraha (Aku membuka hatiku dengan kejujuran)

Hayya nab'idil karaha (Hindarilah kebencian dan dendam)

Syakkireena a' kulli na'ma (Marilah kekalkan syukur dgn apa yg kita ada)

Ba' ideena anil fattana (Hindarilah segala penipuan dan dosa²)

2007-12-26T14:00:00.001+08:00

Waniifox msg me yesterday, asking me to accompany her to chat with her on the phone. Nie budak kecik, aku miss ko gilagila! Its been a while we've not been meeting each other after the last day of school. Maklomlar, org da busy keje kan. haha. Da jadi kakak2 keje! haha. Mampos!

Then a few days back, called wanieC, tanyer khabar dier. haha. Dektu pon lagi satu, busy tolong Pak Dolah jual goreng pisang yer? haha. Make sure, aku dtg saner, dpt free uh! haha

Then Kina, hmm, don't ask. I rarely called her. We're not so close. Cause, i really don't know how to start a conversation with her. She is not so talkative like all of us. She prefer to be quite all along. But, don't you dare to disturb her, if not, dier maki ko atas bawah! hahaha.

Jamilah, tried to called her a few times, but no response. Then she called me back, she gave the reason that her hp spoilt. haha. Jamilah2, hp ko da beraper kali tukar, seme rosak. Pakai public Fone suda milah. haha.

Fajillah pulak, amcm, masih jual carpet? hahaha. asik jual carpet jek, biler mau jual ikan? haha.
Aisha, awk2, biler awk nak suruh mak awk bikin kan kiter mee soto lagi. hahah.
And not to forget, Tessa, i missed you.

Wanifox

Jamilah

KinaKecik

WanieC

Fajillah

Tessa

2007-12-21T17:55:00.003+08:00

Hello
wth! i miss my gf soso much. At least some of them are working not like me, sitting at home and rot. Had find a few jobs, but all must wait for call. so, i have no choice, but to wait! i really wish to go back to school. I really missed makcik nasi padang! haha. She always ask me,

makcik:''Nak nasi nak?

aku:yupp2.

aku:tapi cik, sayer nak nasi taknak pinggan. hhhaha.

makcik:AKU KETUK KEPALER KO!! hahaha

Boring seyy makcik! haha. tAKPER cik, sekali-sekale bergurau tak slh kan. haha. Then went to Tampines pasar malam just now with him, and we were like so craving for Ramly burger. I guarantee you, you eat it once, you'll get addicted! trust me! We become half-insane when seeing all the food there. haha. It makes me want to buy all, and eat it like there's no tomorrow. hahah. Mampos! Then he said,

''U ISTIGFAR U!! haha. yelar yelar! ish!

ok, it's time to do some workout after eating quite alot. 100 jumping-jacks and 50 crunches. Do it about 5 sets && i guess it should be enough to burn my fats although it's not true. :)

;PELURUros

2007-12-20T03:13:00.001+08:00

New skin for this month. kinda bored staring the same all bored layout- ahhaha, althought i likee it soso much.

okaay, vivocity is such a romantic place for us. Stop it eh kiter, da besar2, tua2 alam kejadah pon masih main air, but who cares anyway.
we're just having fun.
Spending the whole dayy with him after a mth not seeing each other, as he had to go thailand for donnoe what training && bcz of that, i cried 7 days 7 nights.

wth! haha. When to lonsdale, buy a skipping rope for him. hahaha. kinda pathetic, but that is what he want for our anniversary. haha. i laugh like hell. budak budak! haha.
mizi, i love u gila la my muscle mann.

grrrrr, :))

senyom senyom selalu!

enough story telling for today, got work todo tomorrow. haha korban kambinggg laaa!! embeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkk!

;PELURUros

2007-12-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ya, im just thingking, can i make to higher nitec?? It is not that im not confident about my own capabilities, im just simply worried. this is just the only path, where i can upgrade myself higher. where i can prove to people, my relatives , my friends, i can be better, a successful women katerkan! haha. i have failed once, so i don't want it to happen again. it's enough!

haish, im tired studying! memorising all the notes, but not a single thing went to my brain. Why eh? tolong aku!!

and another thing, my mum babysit a twins, and dorg dua, very gembeng, sikit2 nangis, stress aku. nak blaja pon, takleh concentrate. stress stress! My exams is tomorrow, wish me luck ya. And tmrw, will be the last day of school, we will be havin our holidays till april. itu pun kalau aku dpt masuk higher. kalau tak, i thought of taking up advance diploma in banking and finance at harvard institute. but, the course fee, wow, darn expensive; $15, 000 if im not wrong. see first laa, let my results decide which path should i go.

i will be missing my gf's yg gilagila and him! :)

; PELURUros !!

2007-11-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

Oh maybe I think,

maybe I don’t

Maybe I will,

maybe I won’t

Find my way this time

I hear you calling me soon
One of these days

Somebody stays

and somebody pays

It happens all the time

I’ll be leaving, believing you wanted me to
Maybe I’m a fool

For walking in line

Maybe I should try to lead this time

I’m an honest mistake that you make

Did you mean to?

Did you mean to
Love is just a game

Broken all the same

And I will get over you

Love is just a lie

Happens all the time

Swear I know this much is true
And they collared you up

And collared you down

And coloured you in

And I’ve been waiting so long

To take you home

; PELURUros

2007-09-10T12:02:00.000+08:00

(Part 4)

Marvellous chocolates&beautiful cakes for a beautiful person like NurulHuda! Happy 21th birthday my veteran. Loves her. Known for 7 mths, feel like years. Her absence from school, is totally a boredom. Her nonsense, makes me crazy. Her smile, the boys will fall for her, even myself, luckily we are the same sex, kalau tak, ________________ ! feel in the blanks k! She was totally happy, wishes from friends, gifts from us on her special day. Best wishes my darlingg! :)

;PELURUros

2007-09-10T11:55:00.000+08:00

(Part 3)

Whenever im feelinf left out, unatractive, stupid, self-conscious, misunderstand, outcast, abused,useless, worthless and forgetten, remember what has been reflected in the mirror of truth about me.

- i am unique
- i am beautifully and wonderfully made.
- i am special
- i am priceless
- i am valuable
- i can be anything i want to be
- i am a winner
- i am not alone

:)

;PELURUros

2007-09-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

(Part 2)

Alamakk,
She gets to my nerve mann! arghh, feel like giving her a huge punch on the face. Might wonderin who am i referring to? Hmm, she's short. She's ugly, but trying too hard to be cute. Her voice irritates me whenever she speaks. Her sarcatism&criticsm mades me want to throw her from the 14th floor. Can see how much i dislikes her, isn't it? To be straight forward she's my classmate, dian, her name. I cnt hide it anymore her attitude, problem laa! Sorry to say, tha's the fact. What i can say, in class, 3/4 of them, dislikes her. I tried to be nice with her, talked to her, but i cant. We are partners for our badminton tournament. For doubles, usually each individual need to co-operate and support each other. But how can i co-operate wif her when seeing her face, feel like slapping my face. haha. And the other ting, she always catch my mistakes. "lika, don do tis, lika don do that!" Wadda hell, she tinks how pro she is. Idiots. and, she wanted to borrow my clothes, so, the next day i'll bring it for her, but when its my turn to borrow her tings, there must be al;l sort of reasons that she will be giving me, at her sis house laa, her sis borrow laa, hes sis this, her sis that. nonsense. everything, her SISTER! mangkok laa dis kind of ppl. My 1st impression last. from the 1st day of skul, till now, she loves to lie. you are a big liar! :)

;PELURUros

2007-09-10T11:18:00.000+08:00

(Part 1)

wello; hahas

i'm a lil bit annoyed when i told my frens which school i came from. When i said, ITE bishan, they would laughed at me and said, " That school had alot of lesbian, isn't it?" So! so what!! hahas they are trying to say that im too a lesbian or what? bodohhh nyerr. but ots true, there IS lesbian. Talk about dis lesbian tingy, a fren that i've known for at least 7 mths, wanted to be a les. Alamak, dier giler per! Den i ask her,. " what for you want to be like that when it is already a good ting to be a normal&simple girl. She show me, her fone, which in the display states a note that saya, " blame those jerks if i became a lesbian." Now, i get it. She must have fought with her guy. Just becoz of some misunderstanding btwn them, she simply want to break off with him and became a les which most people includs me feel disgusted!! Yuckss! Then i told her frankly, if you want to be a that kind, you must think, what ppl surround you will think and talk about you? How would your parents feel when they get to know , their very own daughter is a les? And, despite i advise her dis, if you want to anything, think bout her poor parents. Then she cried. It's not that im hurting her or something, but as fren, its my responsibilities to help her and go to the right path. yea~ Weird lar! Hey ppl, if you had a fren who wish or want to be like that, please, please, for their parents sake, try to persuade them not to, okayy? Peace.

; PELURUros

2007-07-12T14:50:00.000+08:00

halohaa everybody!

This few days, alot of bad luck happen to me! but why me? At first, i received a private phonecall. it's from a GUY! okayy, our conversation goes like this:

me:Yes, who are you?

unknown:hello, we're from the police station, you're lika right?

(when i heard that it was from the police station, my hearbeat stop! can't stop thinking what did i do wrong?! i'm scared)

me:arghh yes, lika speaking, how can i help you?

unknown:okayy, we found out that you are watching porn? is it right?

(he laughs as if its was so damn funny)

me:whatt??!! watching porn?!!

then, getting fed-up with their laughing, i put down the phone. stupid idiots! pranked call me! are they some kind of stupid or something? calling people, act themselves as police and told me that they found out im watching porn. bodoh punyer org! are they happy doing that kind of thing to people?! lika kene bodoh2! *scramponkk!

Secondly, i'm walking home. and passby this groups of boys playing soccer, at the multi-purpose hall. at first they shout, "PERGI SEKOLAH KE DIK?" then, i whisper to myself, "dik ko! korg bodoh per, tak nampak aku PAKAI BAJU SEKOLAH! then, i ignored them and tried to walk faster. one of them, took that soccer ball and tried to throw at me for no reasons. it hit my back! asshole! if i have the chance, i want to cut-off their hands and feet and eat them up alive! arghh!

Thirdly, i lost my earpiece.

and Lastly, my contact lens. It dropped inside the sink, and was washed away! NOOOO!

Mummy, helpp mee!!!!!!!!

:'(

; PELURUros

2007-05-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

helooo HELllo!

hmm, its been a long time i didn't update. busy women! busy women! busywomen! :))
with school work, exams around the corner, stacks of notes to memorise. i'm goin insane!!

dat's lot more to tell!
but, next time i'll write more!

toodles*

;PELURUros

2007-05-10T14:22:00.000+08:00

hahas, hiii u'all!

had been a long time i didn't update, have a lotsa tings todo!

tons of project arounnd my waist!

so, im veriii sorieee!

been doing the same thing everydayy!

Took the bus, being ashame of myself, seeing all the JC'S student!

dreaming of becoming like them one day had vanished.

waddaaa hell!!

c'mon, when i took my NLEVEL i was in a total of depression!

despite of doing the POA paper, i was daydreaming, thinking back why he done this to me!

hahas, he so cruel!

yes you are!

Sunday, it's a MOTHER'S DAY!

so i was squeezing myy brain of what to buy for mi beloved, Mama!

yeah, she had done soo much for me.

although im not ur perfect child, remember this mama i'll always love you!

thinking back all the sadness that i have given you, make me sucks!

I say im sorry mama

i never meant to hurt you

i never meant to make you cry for tonight

i'm cleaning out my closet.

Miisss himm!

hahas, talk to himm 5 days a week is totally not enough for me bebey!

the funny thing was, half-way through talking wif him on the fone, he would shout YES SARGENT!

hahaahhas, aper sajer si tua nie!

hhehs, and all the way i'll keep disturbingg him using tat word!

it was ** irritating okkeyy!

can't wait !!

can't waitt!!

to watch the movie spidermann, hahas, heard alot of rumors that the movie is greatt!

gotta catch it soon ...

seeing you goingg away fromm me

Quarter-heartedly saying goodbye...

2007-05-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

What would you do if you're not afraid?

i'll let myself fall to pieces. i would allow myself to make even more mistakes. i'll stop caring so much about what other people think.*crious i really don care!. i'd stop being so upset when things don't go as planned or if i've been offended or hurt. i'd stop letting my anger hide and cover my fears. i'd let people fail me, i'd also let myself fail from time to time, and i'd stop caring so much to know if i was right or wrong. in fact, i'd enjoy the fact that i was wrong.if i were not afraid, i'd let me BE me, and stop being defensive of who i am and i'd accept my weaknesses and be proud that i have them. i'd let people be people and allow myself to give them the benefit of the doubt. i'd believe and trust with the innocence of a child and i'd love like a child with all i've got without the need for reason nor logical explanation.

My saturday'ss ..

Meeting Zi after his 2 weeks in his camps. *whoa, i was like I CAN'T WAIT! I CAN'T WAIT! we went marathoning. had a great cheapest dinner&dine at far east. as you may know, that's like my favourite location when i'm broke :) & no, i didnt used zi's cash as i've got my own. we dont look any typical couple you've come across. & liked seriously, with him.i wash eyes for cute hot guys while he with his hot girls. bahz! we're not staring or drooling over them. that would be like, "huh, u guys mad uhh?". no no, we're not! what we did is teaming up & telling one another,"u ... she's hot!" "u ... he's hot!". & as usual it counts, we would agreed on each other opinion. liked fun larrh gitu. he would liked,"u. see that girl, HOT SIAHZ!!!". i would go,"yes yes very HOT!!" & laughed. coz i loved seeing pretty gorgeous ladies & even rate them. mcm best :) so we had fun throughout the entire day. Thanx alot Zi's! <3

Who is your real friends?

Do you know the relationship between two eyes? hmm, they blink together, they moved together, they cry together, they see things together and they sleep together BUT THEY NEVER SEE EACH OTHER.. that's what's friendship.If i called you and ask you to pick me up because sumting had happened, would you come?& If I had one day left to live my life, would you be part of my last day? If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours? This is a test to see who is your real friend or just someone that talks to you when they are bored&I do care! Do you? I CARE!!! :))

2007-04-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

halow everybody .

I have to update. Somebody force me. hahas. So, school was fun, as per normal. Fitri, i saw that Rasta Man again. Ya. you're true, he was superb Adorable. Wee! Stop2! kkiiies.

Out of sudden today, i receive a msg from and anonymous number. It says, "Assalamualaikum". I feel uneasy. Despite, i can't even reply. Cause my prepaid is sick. hahas. So, i called.It was a guy. His voice i seemed to recognised. It's Daniel. My ex. Yucks. Why he contact me back?! He was such an asshole. Arghhh! So i purposely shout "Who's That!!!" Den i put down the phone.
Dumbos! I receive a msg from him. He ask, why i shouted at him. He told me that his intention was just to ask how am i doing, But yet he was being Fck*! So, wat you want me to do? Treat you well after all the shit you've given me. You give me cry all night. You accused me blindly. You're with the other girls when i was not around. you still have the cheek to contact me back.

Go away and never come back ! !

2007-04-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

Y Yahoo!!Y

Heylew !
Welcome back to school my deary friends. Have been missing u'll since schools close. hhhes . Early in the morning, as usual mit my super crazie, merepek kopek buddies;wani. She's fun bebeh. Never fail to make me smile&and make me laugh like nobodies business. You Rawk! She's different today;i mean, her appearance, more gorgeous! hhehs. :p

Shit ! Came to school with only one contact lens that is on the left . My right eyes are red.It really give me a shock, wake up in the morning and it was totally red. I had a swollen eyes before and was sent to the SNEC for a consultation and the doctor said it will make me blind if i didn't do anything to it.Blind? Hearing the word blind make me wanna faint. Everybody, can't live without their eyes isn't it? i tell you this, if i'm blind, i rather die. Serious. Cause i can't do anything.Everything! Hope my eyes will be okay by tomorrow. Amin.

Hhes.The april intake students are in today at Bishan. A few of my friends are there too. How was your first day of schools ? Make alot of new friends? i hope u'll can adapt in that school ya.
I remember when i came to school the 1st day. I was so nervous and i was shacking. Went to one of the pillar where they put the name list and which class we supposed to go. I was slot at the class of IOJ. My luck, my class was at the 1st row. So is not hard for me to climb the stairs early in the morning. PEMALAS KATERKAN! hhhes .So i was told to sit beside this guy. Oh mann. He was hot. Damn HOT.Don't believe me, asK wani. At the 1st place, i thought he was a chinese. But when i sit beside him, i get to know that he was a malay. I saw his report book. His name was Saifuddin lee. So, hhheshaha, he mix larh! cool rite??! But after a few days of school, i didn't saw him anymore. One of my classmate told us that he had transferred. Why you transfer?!
hhes. Jokin .

Saw you firtri. hhehs. You look petite! Verry cute. But when you saw me, why you look so shy? hhes. :)

Went to kovan With Ras&wani. I've nothing to do actually. Cheat my mum that i finished at 4. But paderhal.paderhal! I can't went back early. Hate it mann. There would be something that she would ask me to do. Do this, do that !! oh no ! This is the only opportunity that i can give myself a space. Did have alot of fun with them. Thanx u'll !

i love this lyrics..This is for someone ..

Bila kau kata kau sayang

terusss..

aku tersenyum..

Terlantas ku menjawab..

hmmm...

aku juga sayang padamu..

bila kau kata kau rindu..

aku...

pun rindukan mu..uu..

terlalu ku jelaskan..

kita..

sudah saling oh jatuh cinta..

kau hadir saat aku memerlukan..

penawar duka lara..

setelah lama..

hidup ku kesepian..

terbalut lar lukaku.

dengan harum cintamu.

terima kasih ku ucapkan..

senyuman mu sering ku terbayang.

terlompat diriku bila dengar suara mu

terasa bagaikan..kau ada disisi..

dimana saja ku berada..

aku pun berdoa pada tuhan..

semoga cinta kita berpanjangan selamanya..

Berkocak nafas didada.

bila terpandangmu..

jangan lah engkau pergi dariku ..

*omg!!

this song makes me wanna cry ..

:'(

2007-04-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

Y ii Love NatureY

Heyloo!! :)

It was fun today. It was a family day. Yahoo! It's time to enjoy with my family. My father's company is organizing an activity for their workers&their families. So the activity will be held at Pasir Ris Park. When we reached there, i was stunned! There's alot of people. It was not what i expected. So the activity begins. I thought of not participating as im shy.Trying to be cool actually. But i was not.You see, teenagers nowadays are really not interested in participate in all this staffs. So i told mi father that i'm going to the washrooms. As i walk down the paths, i saw a couple, sitting underneath the huge trees, hugging each other&watch the beautiful scenery infront of them; the calm blue sea. Romantic isn't it? hhhess . im jealous! Shit! nevermind then . Despite of going to the toilet, i went to beach. Took of my shoes, put my bag aside & here i go. playing with the sands; scribble my name and his name! hhhes. It was a nice one. I wrote Rosebullet. Sitting down, thinking of him&I miss him alot. i Wish that he could be here , beside me& Guess what, i cried. Pathetic right? Arghh. Whatever. There are some silly pictures that i snap when i was at the beach.

Anything; comment ya!

2007-04-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

Y love you Y

My girlfriends .U'll rawks my day bebeh! How's was my mum's cooking? Hope no complaints ya. I can't go out today. I'm terribly ill. Sorry my ladiee's. So they decided to come. As usual. They went to my room and automatically jump at mi bed. "Makcik's2. my katil roboh, korg kene!"hhess. hahas. Out of sudden, emma ask me, " maner zi?!" Dier tak dtg niari?". I've told her before. He will be going ns soon. That's why he is not here u slenger!! ish!

2007-04-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

Y Be Truthful

It's hard, sometimes, to put my trust in someone new. When i'm still learning who they are, it can be difficult to know how to react to the various situations i had encounter in life. Just remember, though, with every move I make, I could be setting up the patterns for the duration of my relationship. Tread carefully, but stay true to myself.

Dear Mai

Susalar nak contact ko! ko kol den aku angkat pas tu ko letak. sakit hati aku.hhhess. so I'll have to share my thoughts rather more publicly than I'd prefer. oi.Just keep in mind, you are the only one who can answer your question, and I'm just another traveler trying to find the path,anyway.
Whether or not you remain friends with this guy depends on how you love him.

(Setiap seseorg ader cara yang tersendiri untuk melafazkan cinta)
If you can genuinely accept that your time with him is over, that you no longer have a chance with him, and look forward to future happiness of your own, then, by all means, remain his friend. If you find this isn't the case for you, yet, then you might want to take some time for yourself, step back. That doesn't necessarily mean ending the friendship altogether. If he's worth it, if the friendship is worth it, perhaps you can be a more distant friend until you can have him as regular features in your life. The situation doesn't have to devalue the strength of the relationship.phm makcik.

i wanna have a late night chat with you like usual.

ringggggggg me!

2007-04-13T14:05:00.000+08:00

Is hard to say goodbye

Will be lonely without zi with me. If not by now, we will go out to have our ride to the place we used to go. The place where we always find the peace of our mind. Zi; a person that i wouldn't want to lose --never; a sober and intelligent young man yet full of jealousy. Is really hard saying goodbye to him just now. He said . 'makcik, i'll see u soon in 2 weeks time. no worries mann. Just remember one thing. if you are sad because of my absence, look at the album that the both of us did. The photos that we printout. remember all the times that we had.you'll be okay. trust me .take care of yourself. Be a good girl. don't give mum a headache!okay?' i know i know i know . i'll be fine. i guess. When zi walked away. feel like crying. bye pakcik.Takecaree too!

wish you were here

Absence doesn't always make the heart grow fonder. Sometimes it just gives me too much time to wonder why I bothered in the first place. I start questioning whether all those lovely feelings I used to feel were real.When you can remember the lovely ones, that is.

2007-04-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

zi will be leaving me

tomorrow will be the last day of our meetings. sob2! kinda sad. being away with the one you love. But hey. Its not gonna be like FOREVER! it will be for only two weeks den zi will be coming bck. u promise to treat me mkn rite? make sure. i'll be right here waiting for you.Crying in your arms is not a pleasure.it juz showing that i care&concern about you.Dat's all.

Another fine mess I've gotten myself into

If you had a thing for a person, how would you want to be told if they only saw you as a buddy with zero potential to anything more, ever?I've never had to tell anyone I wasn't interested in dating them. Yeah, I've broken up with a boyfriend or two or three or more, but I've never had to tell perfectly nice people that I've got zero romantic interest in and feel absolutely no physical attraction to them. Either no such persons have ever pursued me, or I've remained completely oblivious to the pursuit. On the handful of occasions when I've suspected someone of developing an interest in me, I stopped each one in his track, one way or another, before they could reveal themselves.Now, my general cluelessness lasted too long for me to nip things in the bud and save us both a bit of embarrassment. The other night he said, "I really like you." Fortunately, the music was pumping loud enough for me to feign ignorance as I tried to think of something to say other than, "Oh, isit. MCM PHM" Eventually, he stopped waiting for a response.I know, I know, I know. I should have said something better, instead of pretending I couldn't hear what he was saying. But, I'm a ass that way.I can't cheat this feelings of mine. You keep on repeating, keep on emphasizing that you like me. I would say. 'Juz forget it Shaf!'.

sorry

2007-04-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

Starting off this blog does not mean that I would like the whole world to know what is going on in my life. Just a little space of mind - for self-expression; a space of thoughts. I can assure that there are lots of people out there busy seeking for some inspiration to spice up their life a bit. Afterall, it doesn't hurt to view what one's view of life right?What inspire me to start this blog is the word sharing. Sharing is a big word. Something that I was taught and grew up with. Funny thing, I still remember that I used to share my barbie dolls with my brother. hhehhess...

Sharing is the most beautiful thing in life. Why keep it to yourself if you can share? Share your thoughts, share your happiness and joy. Don't be selfish and keep it to yourself while you can spread your love and care to the ones around you. Some are just too blind to see how many out there that actually cares of what they do and whats happening in their life. It takes a little bit of thinking and attention to realize that there is someone out there that cares and concerns about you, your mood, your well being, your studies, basically your life!

2007-04-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

first of all, to dat 2 super F boys; Fazryl&Fazrul; ;hu help me to create mi blog, THNX bebeh!! hheehhs .. w/o u all ..mi blog wouldn't be dis superb!! hhheeehs .. pink rawks !!